rejoice always? he said it again, rejoice!

man, i'm sick. different symptoms rolling and changing every three days since wednesday oct. 28th. this is getting ridiculous. the last two days i've had a sore on my tonsil which is killing me and putting tons of pressure on my left ear, you know how that goes? i'm just sick of not feeling well.

*sigh*

i know i don't come close to most people in this world's pain and suffering.

but i do have to admit that i thought of job yesterday. i was thinking about all those things that have seemed to completely gone out of my life (see the post on oct. 22nd entitled these days, His ways) in the last few months. things that i loved and are good things - yes? - and things that even assist in my relationship with the God of the universe through Jesus - surely! so do i ask, "why, God, have you seemingly taken these good things?" ...no. that is not faith. we know the promises of His Word. we know He does not withhold any good thing. so we praise Him and trust Him in the midst of the circumstances and life-changes. ...and what about now? a week and a half of illness, again certainly not as horrible as job but very uncomfortable nonetheless, right after getting offered a job. do i ask Him why? do i get angry and allow satan's plan to edge its way into my heart producing nothing but self-pity and sin? or is it "turn your eyes upon Jesus/look full in His wonderful face/and the things of earth will grow strangely dim/in the light of His glory and grace."